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i'm juz sick & tired of everythin.. sick of people who never appreciate my kindness, tired of people who seriously keep makin me fed up & fed up & fed up till i'm super f***ed up rite now..

i mean why muz everythin happen all at e same time? i got a lip by e OC for not followin e schedule, juz a few days after that, i didnt get e chance to sleep cuz i was so in damn pain.. later on when i was finally able to fall asleep, e next day i was like blur.. couldnt concentrate on anythin that's bein taught during class. how in f***in hell am i suppose to pay attention when i'm feelin sick all over?? later on, a day later, somebody clever called a mother f***er.. even if it's meant as a joke, it hurt me juz as well.. i mean wouldnt u if u were me?

come on, ive never called anyone anythin like that before.. so why was it me? wad did i do to deserve a word like that? so, i was angry with that gonna-be-jerk. but then, he's rite, i can never stay angry with him.. though ive forgiven him minutes after he said that, im still not talkin to him. k, maybe i did, but it was only for e sake of NPCC & as a responsible friend. i did try to help him save his friendship with another fren & now they're ok..

tell me, does e word SORRY tells u anythin? it did to me. it told me that it has to be used from e heart, with feelings of regret, with sincerity.. do u have to ask if u shud say sorry? come on, when r u gonna think for urself?

then, rite now, i'm all feverish.. 38.2 degrees celcius.. man, im fallin really sick after almost a year since i last had fever.. shit.. this i hate, im not e strong person i was.. maybe age is comin up on me.. wad e hell...

u now there was this one guy i've always liked ever since i was 13.. he was a great guy, i'm short of words to describe e person he is now, anyways, he's a great guy, i was always there for him whenever he needed me, our friendship bloomed, & feelings for him grew stronger every hour... but thing is, ive always wondered, was he ever there for me whenever i needed him? did he ever appreciate my being there for him all e time? i don think so..

so somebody, tell me please... how am i suppose to answer my own questions? i still do like him a whole lot.. please do comment on this post if ur readin it, i need answers to my questions.. please!!!! or if u wanna to, contact me at bollywood_bollywood@hotmail.com

thanks

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