Thursday 22 February 2007
i've realized.. i've changed a whole lot.. i'm not e one i used to be once.. i was always e happy one in everybody's eyes.. i'm no longer that, there r times when sum of my frens saw that i was moody all day, it's super obvious when u've been frens with me for a LONG time, that's wad these people said anyways..
i think i noe e reason, how i changed from a jovial-too-crazy person to a once in a blue moon moody person... it must be beacuse of my hair.. i noe it's difficult to understand wad i'm tryna say here.. let's take it slowly..
i've always had short hair.. everyone knew e tomboy.. everywhere she goes, e first thing others would comment on was her hair, how short it was & when she's gonna bear it long.. she's endured all sorts of torments because of her self, she'd never give a damn bout how she looks like, as long as everyone around her's happy & she felt accepted in her group of companions..
i spiked my hair up 2 years ago.. & then i juz stopped. suddenly i juz wanna be a girl for a change. i wanted to be noticed as someone else & not as a tomboy.. a week ago, when ShaSha invited me to come with her & e others for lunch near Orchard Road, i wore my favorite green shirt & green sneakers along with a pair of dangling green earrings.. e girls were like glad that i'm finally turning into a lady..(sort of) & i remembered clearly, 2 guys, my frens, complimented that i looked pretty.. i was happy for e rest of e outing until it was time for me to go home.. darn
but though people like this lady-like me, i don feel comfortable being this way.. i've never done anything like this before, & it's super awkward to have guys suddenly praising u.. i'd like it to continue but i think, since e major examinatios are coming soon, maybe its time to stop this lady business.. my hair's gonna go UP again..
i noe u mite be readin' this guys.. i'd want u guys to understand e plight i'm in rite now.. u've been trying hard so hard to prevent me from cutting my hair.. i've no choice but to deny u that right.. i need to compose myself before... i'm lost for words...
Nicholas,
i noe u'll be readin this soon enough, thanks a lot for tagging.. i'd want u to noe that no matter how hard u try to make me into a lady, it's gonna take a long time.. it's not easy, but i promised i'd try aint it.. thank u for being there for me all e time..
hi homesick boy,
hi blondie,
hi horse lover..
haha, i missed u guys a whole lot, i'll always love u no matter how far e distance between us...
please remember to torment Nicky for me, carry on jumping in e elevators.. hey country, make sure he rides on Moonlight e next time he visits ur farm.. haha
to ShaSha & e gerls,
sorry but ive made up my mind to snip-snip.. thanks for bein there for me
to Danial & e guys,
thanks for bein e light of my life
love my homies out there
ps: very soon Nicholas, very soon
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