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i am so so so so so so so ANGRY!! with: my brother, the President of Students' You-Know-What Council, my brother again, ouh and did i mention the Students' Council??

omg man, there's just no pleasing sum people.. imagine e first day of orientation, the mood was so down and low, so dull and quiet, butt pained from sitting cross-legged too long in the hall.. then the only way to create live was to have seniors racking up a mood for everyone.. isnt that supposed to be the way?? i mean, seriously, if the orientation leaders cant make a happy lively first day for newcomers why cant the Warriors do a better job out of it?? besides, it was the OGLs who wanted everyone to mingle around bla bla bla...

so from the first day on, i thnk newcomers were able to mix around n i gotta say, i think they ARE enjoying themselves, specially that they have crazy noisy ppl around - the Warriors i mean...

why are we called the Warriors?? Mr Azman, the best VP ive ever known, wanted to know how to call people like us.. so, to motivate us further, we came up with the Warriors. we noe that we are fighters, even if we're struggling, we have to work even harder to overcome our obstacles and go thru the war, bruised and battered but still going thru to the very end, victorious.

wad actually happened today? lets see... assembly, games, n a bloody "pep talk" by unprofessional "councillors"... i mean, yea rite, wadever they were talking bout doesnt even make sense and were they trying to make us feel better because of our plight, or worse??

we may be retainees, but we're all humans.. we've got feelings, ego, sense of rebellion; all these are normal in an ordinary person, am i not wrong? thing is, i don thnk the OGLs realise wad exactly they're doin to themselves. they're not hurting us, no, not at all.. the stuff they were saying about were just making them feel even worse... i mean, seriously, they think we're creating trouble for them but the thing is, all we ever did was to create a life out of a boring orientation.. that is sumthing good, right? right??

u can call us wadever u want, retainees, repeat students bla bla bla...
we don care.. at all..

honestly,
our egos took a huge tight beating the day we got our results. that was sum hell..
we got thru that, together, the Warriors. we spent 2 weeks together, form closer bonds because we noe wad we're all feeling.. but we got thru that phase, long long ago.. we didnt ask to go for the orientation. we would gladly have just stayed at the library and do our own self study like wad we've always been doing. wad? who says retainees cant study? oh, only those in SC can succeed is it?

personally, i don think they have any right to be calling us retainees or repeat students. we have courage, courage to come back and continue from square one, all over again. it took courage to put our honor one side and go back to school putting on brave faces in front of everyone else in the school.. we could have left but we didnt because we know wad we really want in life, how to succeed better, we've decided on everything, thought things thru during the hols. that is why we're called the Warriors cuz we are not gonna give up even if given the chance to..

ok, so during the 'pep talk' just now, wad was it all about? was it to clear things or to rebutt everything we have to say? i thought those ppl wanted to hear wad we have to say then why were they fighting back even before we finished talking? wad was that all about?? werent they suppose to be listening since they're teachers? then solve the problem after hearing from both parties? tell me if wad im saying is not true cuz i noe it is true..

i did not go for last year's orientation so i dunno how different this year's is from the last. but after 4 years in a leadership course (remember i said i was Overall-In-Charge for my school's NPCC), i noe the hard work of getting a good camp well done.. ive done a lot of orientations, n however difficult it had been i noe my team had gotten all the support from everyone... so, my qn is, if the SC thinks we're making trouble, weren't we actually helping them to get the newcomers be more lively etc?? weren't we actually supprting them? we participated in the games held, mingled around with the newcomers, doin everything the SC needed us to do.. so wad exactly is the problem? why were they bias against us so much? why were they always emphasising on the word repeat and retained? like ive said, we are ok with the terms as long as they are directed in positive ways but the way Mariya said it just now, wow... thanks a lot.. u tell me, who wouldnt get angry if the intention was intended to humiliate all of us, a group, a large group in front of 500 new students??

now if u were there, how would u feel? ok so we noe, the OGLs are clever ppl, never been retained bla bla bla, cuz it seems that if uve been retained u cant be in SC so wow.. big deal... wadever that girl did was seriously uncalled for and deserved to get whacked upside down right and left.. i might get sumthing worse than detention for posting this, but don i get to say wad's on my mind and heart? most importantly, in others who suffer e same plight?

i don use vulgarities that much cuz its pretty low.. but everythings just plain bull...

ouh i left out shit...

so there u go..

BULLSHIT

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